I Dreamed a Dream by Susan Boyle
“I dreamed a dream” is one of my favorite songs. I have seen the play Les Miserable more than once. One of my favorite thing to do is blast the music in my car belting out the ballads. Even though it’s a sad song, it’s a song that gives me goosebumps every time! I think with phrases like these I could make endless comparisons to My Migraine Life.
Every word of the song can relate to my struggles as I’m sure it can be related to most. Being that the UTube video is of Susan Boyle and not the Les Miserable version that I so dearly love, I started thinking of her pre-performance interview. I have to admit, I did not follow her rise to fame, but it is difficult not to know who she is. What I find interesting, is that she said it was her dream to be a singer and that she was excited to have a big audience.
Well, the grass isn’t always greener on the other side. Once she became famous I think her dream turned into something that she didn’t fully expect. She found it difficult to be judged for her appearance and suffered from some social issues that were put under a magnifying glass.
The Grass isn’t Always Greener
So this made me wonder…if I could get rid of my migraine attacks, would something else result that made me even less happy? I live a blessed life except for these horrific attacks that I suffer from. If I was given a choice to get rid of my migraine disease but sacrifice my husband, children, family, or friends I wouldn’t be able to do it. I’m so focused on my migraine attacks and controlling them. If I didn’t have to do that anymore, would something else arise in its place that is less controllable?
Would the “butterfly effect” happen if my dream comes true of a migraine-free life? Would it result in the rest of my life spinning out of control? I don’t know. Sometimes the grass isn’t always greener but I think it’s a human curiosity that makes us hope that it is. I don’t want my life to kill the dream I dream or tear my hope apart. For now, I’ll keep dreaming even if I have some weeds damaging it.